The Baystate Marathon was full of ups and downs. It was a practically perfect day weather wise except for a pretty significant headwind along 6-7 miles of the course. My mom and I separated at the starting line with our respective pace groups and wished each other good luck. I was pretty excited to get started and had a hard time holding back my pace for the first three miles. I finally settled in with the pace group and hoped my legs would start to loosen up soon as they usually do around mile 6. Unfortunately, mile after mile I felt stiff, but I was holding my pace without expending too much energy so I hoped my legs would last through the end. Right before hitting 13. 1 (halfway) I saw Carter, Chris, and my dad and that gave me a much needed boost! From there, everything was going okay as I began the second loop of the course. I could feel my legs wearing down, but mentally I was strong as I kept telling myself to take it one step at a time.
My pacer unfortunately had stomach issues around mile 16 and disappeared only to return at mile 20 when I started to fade. I predicted he would return just as we hit the downhill and that he would take off so I knew I had to be ready to kick it into gear. Just as he came into view, I saw him speed up ahead to push the downhill and as I attempted to catch him, I realized I didn't have that much left in the tank. I was able to hold my steady pace for another two miles (with the pacer in view) but at mile 23 my stomach and legs began to cramp and I realized I would have to slow down to even be able to finish.
Mile 23 was really long. Mentally this was the hardest milestone of the race because it's where I started to focus more on the pain than my goal. I just knew I had to keep moving my feet though so I did, albeit slowly. Then as I finished up mile 23, things started loosing up a bit and I could go faster, though not fast enough to stay on pace. I checked my watch--11:20 at mile 24. I knew I had to finish by 11:35 to get my Boston Qualifier and I had 2.2 miles to go. I realized it would not happen this time and it was hard to accept that I had missed the cut by so little.
By the time I saw my family near the finish line, I just wanted to burst into tears. I was mentally and physically drained and totally convinced that I would never run a marathon again. Fortunately a hug from my favorite bear helped me enjoy the accomplishment of a new PR and being very close to my BQ. I only wish mom and I had stayed together since she only finished 6 minutes behind me (and got her BQ!)
Now to qualify in Phoenix in February!
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Baystate Marathon, Lowell, MA